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May 24, 2011

the best laid plans of mice and men

often go awry.

I planned so thoroughly. I had everything I needed, too. The job, the pay, the tools. I had calculated everything so much, complete with excel.

But now I face my biggest adversary. Myself. One thing I had not counted on was my own apathy. The lack of want, lack of joy.

Please, Lord, take this away from me. I want this, I need this. This is what I’ve asked of you for so long. Please help me find the strength to do this. You have given me so much. Let me, in turn, give you what I can. Please God, inspire me. Motivate me. I don’t want to lose this.

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